This is the phrase I keep finding myself repeating to people lately.
"It's a process." Process:
Our families are both so excited about the arrival of our baby (in January of 2010, mind you), that I think some of them expect me to grow before their very eyes and deliver any minute. "It's a process," I keep reminding them.
I'm pretty sure that, in the past 2 weeks, I've been "absolutely sure" about my choice of baby furniture about 6 times. "It's a process," I have to tell myself. (At this point, I can't even begin to look at bedding/themes The furniture is the most basic part, and I can't even decide on that. Pretty sure I'll just have to "eenie, meenie, miney, moe" the bedding.)
People keep reminding Adam and I to focus on one another, and not to take this time for granted, because everything is about to change. I know we can't fully understand all that's about to happen, but I'm so thankful that we both trust and rely on a FAITHFUL God to walk us through all of it. I know that even the changes in our marriage, which I trust and know will be for the better, will be a part of this ever-changing, long process.
It's June, right? 6 Months until Christmas, 6 Months until this little gift of ours will arrive. Somehow, that makes me feel like right now, the middle of summer, is "crunch time". I feel an uncontrollable urge to go out and accomplish all of the Christmas shopping I can now, because of all of the "what-if's" rolling around in my mind. When I force myself to stop and be still, I can hear the Lord whispering to me, "Trust Me." Sometimes, I want to tell even Him, "It's a process, Lord." :)
Though the process seems like a long road ahead right now, I know I'll wake up in what seems like a few short weeks, and it will all be behind me.
Lord, help me to live out the words of your servant, Jim Elliot: "Wherever you are, be all there."