Sunday, June 14, 2009

"It's A Process"

This is the phrase I keep finding myself repeating to people lately.

"It's a process." Process: a systematic series of actions directed to some end.

Our families are both so excited about the arrival of our baby (in January of 2010, mind you), that I think some of them expect me to grow before their very eyes and deliver any minute. "It's a process," I keep reminding them.

I'm pretty sure that, in the past 2 weeks, I've been "absolutely sure" about my choice of baby furniture about 6 times. "It's a process," I have to tell myself. (At this point, I can't even begin to look at bedding/themes The furniture is the most basic part, and I can't even decide on that. Pretty sure I'll just have to "eenie, meenie, miney, moe" the bedding.)

People keep reminding Adam and I to focus on one another, and not to take this time for granted, because everything is about to change. I know we can't fully understand all that's about to happen, but I'm so thankful that we both trust and rely on a FAITHFUL God to walk us through all of it. I know that even the changes in our marriage, which I trust and know will be for the better, will be a part of this ever-changing, long process.

It's June, right? 6 Months until Christmas, 6 Months until this little gift of ours will arrive. Somehow, that makes me feel like right now, the middle of summer, is "crunch time". I feel an uncontrollable urge to go out and accomplish all of the Christmas shopping I can now, because of all of the "what-if's" rolling around in my mind. When I force myself to stop and be still, I can hear the Lord whispering to me, "Trust Me." Sometimes, I want to tell even Him, "It's a process, Lord." :)

Though the process seems like a long road ahead right now, I know I'll wake up in what seems like a few short weeks, and it will all be behind me.

Lord, help me to live out the words of your servant, Jim Elliot: "Wherever you are, be all there."


Amy G said...

It really is a process and there always seems like an endless list of things to get done before the baby gets here. But you are right, it is best to focus on you and Adam's realtionship right now, to make it stronger for the road this is ahead. A baby changes everything is such a true statement, but it changes it for the better. And you don't need to look for bedding b/c you can just make it, isn't that great! I bet she or he will have the most unique room with their name all over it, so cute!

Krista Sanders said...

Great advice to yourself, sweet Tori! You are ABSOLUTELY right!! Now....I can't imagine your trying to pick out bedding with your love for patterns and fabrics!! And I LOVE your new look! May have to copy YOU now!